An attempt to present sound as it is, not attached to anything but itself, yet far away from being a document or a representation of something.
Photography by Matthias Urban
released January 15, 2019
‘Hesitant’ is a sound study created over the course of 2017, and also a reissue and partly a rework of a special 35 copy edition book released for my 2017 Japanese tour. This work is dedicated to Steve Roden.
‘Hesitant’ includes several sound sources captured for various events I was invited to participate in. The sounds were in perpetual change and becoming for a year, until I almost lost track of their origin.
I met Steve Roden in Pasadena during my residency in Los Angeles, curated by VOLUME in June 2017. We spent almost an entire afternoon at his beautiful bubble house talking about life, art, upcoming works and drinking a Japanese roasted tea called houjicha. He told me about his recent decision to get rid of the gear he had used for years, in order to approach something he wouldn’t know very well, like a modular synth. The courage to perform live without a complete knowledge of the new instrument, nor any pre-arranged sound or synth patch, exposes him to failures. “Being vulnerable means sharing”, he said. I was stunned by his incredible honesty. That is a real enlightenment in the contemporary darkness based on appearance, rather than contents.
Compositions, live performances or anything concerning shows, are all something that deal with fiction in a way. With this new work I sought to not create any pre-determined intention as much as possible, erasing any explicit compositional gesture to focus on instability and hesitation. This is a work without a precise form, yet to be completely revealed, like something ancestral that could potentially be anything.
‘Hesitant’ is an attempt to present sound as it is, not attached to anything but itself, yet far away from being a document or a representation of something.
(Maybe) recorded at EMS Elektronmusikstudion (Stockholm), Pollinaria (Civitella Casanova), Japanese Pavillion @ LACMA + Richard Serra’s ‘Band’ @ LACMA + 600 Moulton Ave (Los Angeles), Tokonoma Studio (Roseto degli Abruzzi), Garten Der Welt + Eisenbahnstr. 15 (Berlin).
Thanks to Steve Roden, Lorenzo Balloni, Luigi Turra, Joe McKay, and all the people I met in Japan in Nov–Dec 2017.